A Saturday thought

The truth is you don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy ride, and nothing is guaranteed.

Eminem

 

Life,hey !!!!We read a lot about depression ,anxiety and life problems however in most cases we are not prepare to take the bull by the horns and be ready to change things which often gone wrong therefore we are by all means a society of moaners .I do apologise if I ofended anyone but I don’t want to put everyone under the same umbrella as I know some people do not complain as much as others however I want to juxtapose the ”moaning” phenomena as a regular thing we,humans,preach on daily basis.And even then we may or may not complain when everything else does not turned well in our favour we still have our own ways to say things how they are or may not be. In many situations we stress, over-analyze and suddenly our problem seems to loom large and impossible. But in reality the problem is not always that big. Specifically,if I wish to talk about myself as a subject, I don’t spend all day thinking about it, nor does it totally consume me. Some things, yeah, they weigh heavy and come in and out of my mind; but for the most part, things get magnified here in a way that they’re might not be .I accept life as it is and as change comes and goes I find myself going with the flow. During the change, I shifted from seriously over-analyzing and obsessing )to a very logical and analytical way of seeing things .I always seek out for solution . Initially, things changed for practical reasons: with a new, itty bitty life and all that came with it, there was just no time or energy to treat things as I used to. I remember thinking, the first few times I rolled these thoughts in my head, that I’d spent my life over-analyzing because I obviously had nothing better things to do.

But there were other factors, too. For one, I think,I grew up.And yes,adults grow up. Also, this new-found mental freedom was the result of all the work I’d put into “my” as I was calling ”therapy”. And all in all, this was a win-win situation for me. Whatever the reasons, in the end, what’s mattered to me are the changes I’ve seen in myself and how I live my life. This is a process that’s been years in the works, and it continues.And believe me I learnt to “psycho” analise myself rather than having taking therapy to a psychiatrist but rather I should call the process my mental toughness lesson.So, there is indeed a marked difference in how the things affect me in reality vs. how they come across in my mind .It looks rather complicated but the consequence of this, though, is that when many people have that type of awkardeness which is often distorded by social media. For the newbies I know is hard.It is hard to publish a new post,it is hard to connect with people and its hard to seek for help but do you  know what?There are lots of people out there who already started some channels to help people like you and like myself too although I could say by now that I am kind of a “senior” in here.I always think that they must feel awkward, too, thinking about all they’ve read here and thinking that they may not have the experience and be a such a social mess. Lots of you may think like:I always have an urge to acknowledge the elephant in the room and be like, “Hey, I’m not as insane as I come across in my blog. I swear. Really. See me right here? Not insane!” But that, I think, would just make things worse. And the truth is, the moment passes. I feel the awkwardness, but it goes away within minutes, and it never seems worth it to make anything of it. So guys ,please listen to me…I have been there once…

Many ups and down marked my life  on LinkedIn and social media again and again.The silver lining even in that was that it served as another experience for me to learn and grow from. Whatever’s come after that has been completely manageable because that was so devastating. Even recent nonsense that threw me for a loop – even that was done and gone once the initial “WTF?” feeling passed and I figured out what I really felt and acted on those feelings.

So…. to summarize. I survived all the odds and now after years and years I like to share that experience with you.I really don’t know how to look back at the things that took up so much space here and wrap ‘em up in a neat bow. I’ve started some posts where I try to offer a window into what I feel now and why, but it’s such a difficult thing to capture. Maybe it’s just something that really can’t be captured – not in any wholly accurate, complete way.

I guess the best I can say is, it’s all good. Doors have been firmly closed and I feel good about it.As social media expanded ,I learnt and grow.I gained confidence and self esteem. I’ve moved on, and I feel good about it. My attitude is good. I’m good.

And the things that lie ahead? They’re good, too. So folks…keep writing,keep sharing and keep learning..life is good…and I completely forgot…Its Saturday so wishing everyone a resourceful Saturday (with whatever you have in mind!!!).

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