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I am 43 today, Happy Birthday to me!!!!

 

Another year had passed! I am pretty much alive and so blessed .I should thank to God for the wisdom, patience and knowledge He gave to me .I cannot count all the blessings as there are so man …but I am starting to celebrate every moment of my life. Today is special. ,,It is therefore with deep sadness and regret that I must inform you that, your dad passed away today’’.Dad is gone …and has been years since that happened …

Two separate events. A death and a celebration. I should be sad but I am not as I don’t view death as a sad event .Death is just a passing …A passing to a better place …I am blessed, healthy and alive…

Today is a day of celebration for me – It’s my birthday .I am 43 years old .I guess I’m not really sure how you’re supposed to count this sort of thing. Some people celebrate their birthday s but I choose not to do it so .For me, I don’t see birthday as a special day .Nevertheless I do the same every day but somehow today was kind of special .I received lots of birthday wishes ,cards ,flowers ,even my sweet residents and staff sung me ..Happy Birthday!

I am blessed, So blessed that I feel like crying …Another year just passed. Somehow I am speechless . How I feel? To be honest, I don’t know …I wish I could say that the journey was easy. Life sucks sometimes and I struggled a lot … Truth is, fighting against odds  has probably been one of the hardest yet most rewarding things I’ve ever done in my life! I’ve shed so many tears at times when I wasn’t physically able to cope with it. But in all honesty, I have to say the joy I’ve been given by God today has far exceeded the pain that I’d endured. I am alive and so blessed .I am an healthy individual and I have a good life .I view every single day as a blessing from God …I look around me and I feel so lucky in so many ways .I am different and somehow I feel special although is still so much room for improvement..I want a better me ,a humble creation …I see myself with different eyes .Life as I knew it has changed forever. Even if I no longer have to wear that ‘happy bunny mask’ this past year has touched my life irrevocably – I was sliced, cut open, fried, sewn for so many times. I had faced things that I never thought I could endure but yet I came out a very strong version of me. I have discovered faith and I know I have support from God this kind of support and encouragement always keeps me going.

I look back at my life and I reflect a lot…I see myself in here …I am here now ; strong, confident ,able to question life ,able to seek help from my Creator .I live a modest and simple life ..I live in a very peaceful environment .But around me is so much sadness. There is the war ,the blood and the tears …

I’m having a tough time lately thinking about others who weren’t so lucky. I couldn’t help myself from feeling sad for those  people who have nothing .Some of them are still young yet their lives were taken away from them.I could see the pain in their eyes ,I could see the emptiness .I can not thank God enough for what He has done for me . Is there a reason why God help me through this? Nevertheless, I am so blessed to be given this second chance by God – to appreciate life better and to inspire others. I guess what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.

I would like to take this opportunity to say that I am so happy to be able to live another year and  I shall  give God all the glory. I am also thankful to all my family and friends for your never ending support and friendship .God made me a better person . I am here now, ready for another day ,In God’s will .I am ready for challenges and whatever it will be throw at me …

 

As this day end I shall say a Big thank you …another year passed ..I am 43 today and perhaps a better version ..I don’t know ..I am not to be judged …

Happy Birthday to me !!!!!!!

 

 

 

 

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